‘Sad Beautiful Tragic’ just came on shuffle and I’m in tears. I hadn’t heard it in a while. I think it’s one of the most beautiful and raw songs she’s ever written. I mean the writing is just… haunting. Looking at it now with a little more perspective, it makes my heart break even more (I know, I know she has found her lover now). But the theme of tragic secret love is prevalent throughout her career, and very loud in RED. Imagine finding someone who you could never reveal the truth about and the strain of that while telling yourself not to run this time, maybe it will be different… but it’s not. I think back then Taylor was her own worst critic… her own demon. She was petrified, confused, lonely and suppressing one of the most vulnerable parts of herself while maintaining a public image. She did not allow herself to fall all the way into someone because of her circumstances and either way, she was the one always getting hurt. “Good girls, hopeful they’ll be and long they will wait.” Your waiting is over. The daylight never looked so good on you, Taylor.

Long handwritten note, deep in your pocket
Words, how little they mean, when you’re a little too late
I stood right by the tracks, your face in a locket
Good girls, hopeful they’ll be and long they will wait

We had a beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

In dreams, I meet you in warm conversation
We both wake in lonely beds in different cities
And time, is taking its sweet time erasing you
And you’ve got your demons, and darling they all look like me