okay, so, ita currently two am, so if any of this sounds weird, I apologise.
I’m an american, and something that sticks out in my mind when I think about my nationality is how im so fucking ashamed of it. And a huge chunk of that is because of school shootings.
As a quick little “history lesson” on school shootings, it was so uncommon and bot even a thing in the United States until the seventie, when Brenda Spencer shot up the elementary school across her house. They didnt even become “normal” here until around 2016 or so.
I watched a few clips of the movie “We Need To Talk About Kevin,” staring Ezra Miller, that was on my recommended this morning, and now I literally can’t call asleep because the clips literally won’t leave my mind. I really like Ezra’s acting, so it’s sort of weird for me to say I’m scared to fall asleep because his scary smile when he played Kevin won’t leave my mind.
I bring this up because Kevin had shot up a school (with arrows, but you get what I mean) by the end of that movie. He holds no remorse or regret for firing at that gym where, I believe cheerleaders, are practicing. We see images of bloodied up bodies being wheeled out, and we see families reactions.
I’ve seen short films and news clippings of these things before, but it never really hot me as emotionally as this movie has. Of course, I feel upset for the families and people in the actual events, but it never really hit me very emotionally because you don’t see gory bodies ( although in wnttak, it was makeup) being wheeled out. You don’t see the person who murdered them walk out. You don’t see their life story.
This movie didn’t make or break my opinion on this topic as a whole, but made me realize how much it’s normalized in 2019. I see school shooting topics on my news feed, but never hear anyone talk about them at all anymore. Back on Valentine’s Day 2017, that’s all my school used to talk about and we don’t even live in Florida. Now, it seems like no one is shocked by the idea of someone shooting innocent people for fun.
And it breaks my heart to see that. I don’t want to worry about whether I’ll come home safe, about whether my friends will, or my siblings, or my future children and grandchildren one day. I don’t want my parents to get a call about how me or my siblings passed away. I don’t want to be constantly afraid of going somewhere where I’m supposed to feel safe. I shouldn’t be worrying over this at all.
Mental health shouldn’t be considered “main stream” or “cool.” You shouldn’t self-diagnose yourself or use the title for attention. And it’s just as bad as not trying to get help when you really do believe you have it, or not helping anyone who does. This also goes for counsellors and doctors, and literally everyone; treat it seriously and make sure they get help if they need it. Don’t be a fucking bystander.
Gun control is something that needs to be fucking limited, letting people have such east access to fucking murder weapons us a huge reason. I get it if you like to hunt, for example, but people have been wanting gun limitations for a reason. A child’s life is more important than whether you got to kill an animal today.
I can’t imagine how people who have been through the experience of something as awful as losing someone or being in a school shooting feel. I’m scared to sleep because I know I’ll have a nightmare after watching that movie, but you guys literally lived through it. I’m so sorry, from the bottom of my heart.
I want something to change. I want our voices, our cries of help to be heard. I want us– no, we need to be taken seriously. Don’t put this back just because you think it’s not a main priority, or because you don’t think it’ll happen to you. Because it might, and before long, it probably will.
(I won’t force you to reblog this, but I hope at least some of you will, because I’m really tired of how this is being handled in society here.)