Writing this post for myself. I met someone very important to me almost two years ago. I was just at a party minding my own business when this really handsome boy came up to me and we just clicked. We hung out almost every day after that party for a solid year until things started to go down hill. I held on to every bit I could because for me he was everything. He literally helped save my life from my self destructive thoughts. I loved him. I still love him. But I seriously need to let go. It hurts so fucking bad because all I have ever wanted was someone who understood me for me. I never in my life had someone who I felt so safe around. I kept telling myself that he loved me too, but deep down I knew this would never last. I can’t spend another month, week, or day thinking about what could have been. Because yes, we had chemistry, and yes if things were different who knows maybe we would still be together. But that’s not my reality. I’m back to where I was, alone. I’m used to being alone. And honestly I kind of like it that way. Being alone, no one can hurt me. And trust me, I have enough hurt to last a life time from everything I’ve gone through. Deleting the photos of us off of my phone this morning was my way of letting the last piece of him out of my life. I cried. I’m still crying. I feel empty and even then it still hurts. However, this is life. There’s not much you can do besides keep your head up and remember at the end of the day you need to put yourself first, because you are all you have.