I really should have offed myself when I had the chance at least it wouldn’t have been so like complicated and messy ugh I just don’t see like the point in any of this I don’t care about the things I have I don’t care like it sounds selfish and ungrateful but it’s true I just don’t care about my life or the things or people in it It’s not fair that I have to live through this so like why would I stick around
Okay so there’s a due South fic on ao3, that is not tagged/warned appropriately (I’m pretty sure because it was so old or imported that it didn’t get full tags, but on ao3 before the latest dS archive import), and it’s a noncon scenario but [SPOILER] a consented to kinky scene, f/k, I think with Fraser as the aggressor? He “abducts” Ray, handcuffs him in the car, drives to a deserted location, etc etc. And I CANNOT FIND IT. I’ve found it 2-3 times, it’s definitely tagged dS, probably tagged f/k, probably not tagged explicit, DEFINITELY not tagged noncon (or I’d fucking be able to find it again!). Anyway I waaaaaaant to find it again (AND BOOKMARK IT THIS TIME).
Any idea wtf I’m talking about?