I don’t know how to put this into words. I guess that so much of my pre-acceptance (of sexuality) phase was spent denying such an integral part of myself, that my identity has grown around protecting that part of me. I spent so much time and energy trying to accept that part of me, that it consumes me. And I know that I would be a different person if I was a cis-heterosexual neurotypical person. But I don’t know how different I would be. I don’t know how much of my identity is tied to how I love, my relationship to my gender, and the intactness of my mind. And I don’t think my identity should be tied so integrally to those aspects of myself. I think I’m being consumed by these parts of myself that should make being alive more interesting, not more challenging. Maybe I’m overthinking this. But. But. If anyone has ever asked you to describe yourself or asked you who you are - and if the first things that come to your mind are your sexuality/gender and mental health, then maybe you understand this post better than you think you do. I’m not saying that love, self, and health aren’t important or aren’t a part of us. I’m just saying… maybe they’re not all there is to us. I don’t know. I think I’m just trying to say that maybe a lot of people on this site don’t know who they are, or tie all their worth into their labels… and maybe those two things are connected. There’s nothing wrong with having a label, but I’m starting to think that it’s a matter of life or death to understand we don’t live in the boxes meant to hold only names.
Why is this world so infatuated with labels? How about we just let people be who they want to be and love who they want to love without having to worry about finding a label for themselves.
Just my opinion that no one asked for 😂