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When I used to post the heartfelt genuine things, in a way, I felt like I was able to talk to you…..

I got a response to one post I labeled, The Road being Traveled.“ Which you liked…..then I sent you through messaging my poem, "You”…..and the response I got was, “I dont know what to say…” And it was the good kind of speechless….

Now…..I think back to all the genuine writings and endless poems I’ve writ….and I will always question if you still think about them….I wonder if you ponder on how my posts and writings have changed…im curious as to if you even miss anything good that I had to say….Unfortunetly….at that time….the good memories outweighed the bad in a way….or maybe it was the fact we talked from time to time when you didn’t have to work…….

I can’t pinpoint when things started to change…..I can but at the same time…..I can’t….I just know and feel in my heart….that as the days….weeks….months…..then years…..as time passed…..like counting down on a timer…..I felt you fade from my life indefinently…..I feel like I’ve lost you forever…..I know we’re both to blame…..I know nothing will ever be the same……

Nothing of this makes me amused or happy…I’m more aware of my mistakes without you….I question myself…..what if I chose her instead?….what if I had kept my word the first time I said goodbye?…what if I never gave you a second chance?….why can’t I just move on?…..I think back to who I used to be and compare me to now….ive been corrupted pretty much….but you warned me from the beginning…..what if I just listened to you then and just not bothered…..

I realize if I did this…. I’d be no better than anyone before me…..I can’t help but still cling to the memory of you crying in my arms….I always held you crying over someone else…..I never held you crying over me…..but you cried over people who promised not to leave but left anyway…..I never wanted to leave…..I had to….

Perhaps I’m sick and twisted….maybe I am fucked up…im petty…I’m obsessive apparently…..but fuck if it’s not killing me with all that I’ve been through with you….spending all those times laying here in this very spot…..wondering where you were or if you were thinking about me….and I’ve apologized for things I’ve done and had many excuses….but this one is the main reason for my posts becoming cold hearted and bitter…..

It was thinking when I’d send a message or something….I’d hoped I was worthy enough for you to still stick around despite how strongly I used to feel towards you…not to close but close enough that when I needed you….you were there…..I used to think that if you cared or wanted to talk to me….you’d actually message my phone….you’d text me out of the blue…..sickest fucked up part of me is still thinking you’ll do that….I’ve waited for what seems like forever…..I’ve waited so long to see a text message from you saying, “hey” without me having to text first……

It comes with disappointment that you aren’t like me…..you don’t feel the way that I do….you never did…..you felt something….you cared at some point…now not as much……while it may seem like for you it was caring deeply…..to me you barely scratched the surface……that was only because of that very little time that we genuinely had together…..these last 3 years in particular….you’ve felt more of an outsider…..only checking in now and again when you were single…..now it’s not at all….I’m the blame for that…..but I can’t help it…….

Maybe this is what you felt with her…..but at the same time…..we didn’t vow to spend our lives together…I never left you for someone else…..there was that one night that I was given hope…..it was the night you told me, “you didn’t want us to move so fast, have a family, and I get bored and leave…..” Thinking back to that…I realized how much I looked forward to having a future with you…..it’s with everything that’s happened since……I guess it has no chance in hell of happening now…

It didn’t matter what I did…..no matter how well I used to treat you….it didn’t matter the heartfelt things I said….it didn’t bring you closer to me…..then added with the horrible things I said….it just pushed you further and further away…..now you’re gone…..I’ve said my final finalized goodbye…..I can’t bother you again……because I’ve done enough already…..as if you haven’t been hurt before…..I just wished you’d remember who was there physically to hold you during those times…..if you can recall how I promised that I’d never leave and in a way….that’s the only promise that I haven’t broken…..and Unfortunetly…..that ends now……I broken all my promises…..I lost your trust…..I lost any chances that were left……most importantly….I lost someone that meant more to me than life itself…..I’m having a time living with that….I will never ever love anybody as I did you….I won’t be able to….much as I adore you…much as I wish I could’ve been there day in and day out….much as I want to change things……I can’t……like these past four years…..I do have a line that I don’t cross…..I try not to intrude on your life physically……not only because I dont want to interrupt your happiness…..but also because it physically hurts me to see you…..I mean the depression washes over me….hell I don’t even have to see you for it to hurt that badly…..just the fact we’ve not had a friendly persistent conversation kills me……

Added with the fact you haven’t been on the road working in two years…..I figured we’d spend a day together or something…..apart from a job where its pointless to have an actually good conversation…..I never got that day…..I never got the amount of time I wanted with you….maybe I’m selfish as fuck…..maybe I’m overthinking again….at the same time….I know Damn well I do have a point to make…..I’ve written over 100s to 1000s of posts just trying to say the right things…..now I feel like I’ve said it all, but look at the length of this post….you’d think I’d run out of things to say…..but it’s like how can I put this in way to where she’ll care enough to respond and have the will to change things between us…..it goes without saying that I should have kept my stride…..I shouldn’t have been so bitter and unkind…..because maybe you’d be here….maybe you’d be here beside me sleeping…..we’d have new memories to reflect back on…….

A whole life ahead of me that I had seen…..they were all filled with you….and in a way they still are….I only say the horrible stuff because how much more stupid can I look speaking about how much I love you when I’m not even anywhere near your life…..I’m not around and certainly not in it…..it would be bigheaded I feel like…..like I got the girl of my dreams but not really…..I want her but she doesn’t want me….how can I write that when years have passed since we spent any significant amount of time together…..I feel like id look pathetic…..kinda like now….like I’m desperate……but at the end of the day…..I just think back to the promise of I’d never leave…..and how I don’t want to break it…..but I have to…..don’t I…..if I didn’t fuck up so bad…..I’m quite sure that would’ve been one promise that I would’ve left unbroken……I’m sorry I became a monster…..I’m sorry for being persistent….I’m prideful due to the fact that I’ve never stuck with anything in my life…..I keep changing my major for god sakes…..but you…..I’ve been faithful……you’re not mine…..you’re probably with someone else….idk how to handle that…..it hurts to know that and it always will….idk with the little time together…..or if its the fact I love you so fucking much….maybe it’s your silence…maybe I looked to deep into things….the way you looked at me compared to the things you said didn’t match up…I couldn’t believe you when you said things pertaining to you not feeling anything for me…I can’t help but think if I treated you so well….if you were happy and so was I….we never had problems really…..why didn’t we ever try….why didn’t we give it our all….why am I still fucking trying…..your actions tell me…so have you….at the same time…..I keep having the constant thought of not giving up…..I’ve never in my life ever have I spent so much time chasing after one thing…..I want a life with you……I know it wont happen now….I’m an idiot for hoping…..but I always hoped you’d see how hard I’ve tried and how much I endured to be with you…..I felt like that gave me the opportunity to be yours again one day…..

I was wrong about everything…atleast that’s what in trying to convince myself….amazing how easily you believe the bad things I’ve said….when in reality…..my actions have never not once matched with the heartless things I posted…..idk why you never saw that…..I wish you did….I wish you loved me….I wish to God you were here…..I hate what loving you has made me become….I wonder when will I get over it..when will I fully heal….if ill ever move on from loving you…..if ill ever be able to be the same again……probably not….

@radbakon