It kind of fascinates me that a common trope within the psychological horror genre is one or more characters having a specific
interest obsession that becomes staple to their lifestyle (If not immediately deadly). Usually it’s triggered by a specific circumstance and usually that circumstance is traumatic.
And I look around at reality and there’s people that are like… “mass shootings scared me so I bought a bunch of guns and got really into shooting so I can protect myself. I’m totally not scared anymore haha” but like. They have practically no other hobbies and their personality is now 90% gun facts and it’s difficult to hold a conversation with them about literally anything else.
Listen there’s a line between hobby and obsession and y'all clearly have some sort of PTSD. Hobbies are developed out of interest, not fear, otherwise you’re literally living the life of a psychological horror character.
This ain’t specific to just gun nuts mk be critical of your own hobbies. Maybe you’re afraid of being too weak to physically defend yourself that you obsess over workouts and diets. Maybe you’re afraid of appearing ignorant so you obsess over political discourse. All situations ultimately cause you more stress than relief of your fear.
Seek help and help fight the stigma against mental health. Those characters don’t often have happy endings. Change your ending.