Hi. I don’t know where to start. I don’t know if I’m cheating or what, but yes, I am getting married. I am getting married with the woman I love who’s ridiculously barge in to my life. She is so unbelievable. So annoying but because of that, it made me fall in love with her. Not in a short period of time. She knows that I am still on the process of moving on from my 4-year-long time relationship. My ex left without a word on me. I tried getting her back forcing myself to go back home even if I am still recovering from the operation I had on my head. I was afraid to lose all my memory including her. But I wish I just did. After she left and trying hard to get her back, while I’m on my way to her, I heard my mom past away. All of a sudden. And it hurt me more. I had so much heart break losing the woman I love and the woman of my life. I went back to Canada and lived my life alone. Away from my father. The person I hated the most. He tried hard to get me but after he got married to his mistress right after mom died, I hated that I had his last name from that moment. While on that moment of darkness, I met this girl, suddenly introduced herself to me and I don’t know why. She said she finds me so mysterious. I don’t know what’s gotten into her. Anyway I introduced myself back and never talked to her after. But she never gave up. She was always around. And it’s really annoying that she was too loud around me. And it is so embarrassing. I keep on avoiding her but deep inside I enjoyed her company. Makes me forget the whole crappy things happened in my life. The moment I hated my life and my existence and I wanna give up, she came to save me. I didn’t know that. But when she went away and got tired of me, I realized that there was a reason she came. That’s to pull me up from the ground where I want to bury myself where my mom is buried. I looked for her every where. Where she usually annoys me. Coffee shop, park, bar, school, backyard even at the parking lot. But she never came. Until this one moment, I saw her at school. I don’t know what to say coz she caught me looking for her. I was speechless when she asked me. I just ran away and I was like a dumbass going back to her and followed her everywhere she go. She said I was so annoying. I told her that I know. I hate myself too and so much. I suddenly break down by telling her everything I kept inside me. I break down and cried in front of her and I was blaming her that the reason why I can’t understand myself more now is because she came. After breaking down, she just smiled, hugged me, and said thank you. I couldn’t understand. She said thank you for letting everything out and not letting myself get drowned on those crap. I cried more when she said that. I had a companion, I told myself. I am not alone anymore. Then I fell in love. It wasn’t too late for me to realize. She helped me forgot and recover. I was so lucky. And now we are getting married.

One day, my ex girlfriend went in my mind. It has been 2 years now since she was gone. Since she left. I don’t know if I miss her. I just really hope that our paths never cross again. And I know that that will be impossible. Thank God.

I will be staying in Canada for good with Sophie. Though she is requesting to have our honeymoon in Philippines, I promised that it will be one of our destinations. 1 or 2 days, we could stay that long. I also wanted everyone to meet her. Including my childish and ignorant friends, coolheads. Just kidding. Thank you for this opportunity. This is the end of my confession.