Does this friendship still have a chance?

I fought for you and this friendship for so long. I tried so hard to not listen to everyone telling me to let you go that this was poisoning me. It makes me stay. I miss the person that I used to call my friend. I still believe she’s still in there because my heart is so big it has room to forgive. Stop shutting me out and saying you’ll change and just be fucking honest with me. You haven’t been you since December. I’m willing to forgive you but i need to hear it and not read it in a text. It’s to the point where i love and cant stand you. If you don’t want this anymore then I’m begging you to let me go. Don’t lead me on thinking you care. And don’t you dare do this to anyone else. If you ever find this. I’m sorry I wasn’t the perfect friend. I’m sorry that i let you down. I’m sorry For myself for choosing me over you. I’m sorry because this was the best decision not talking to you. After you said you would called me but never did. Ask yourself if you really wanted this friendship to work out you would of told me when you were coming to California, tell me that you weren’t okay with Vanessa coming back in my life, tell me that you didn’t like what i had to say about anything, about posting how much i love my friends when you know damn well that you always meant something to me. If you said you wanted to try again. I’ll be ready. I’m ready.