The dream was just so strange, 2 teeth falling out, checking in the mirror I see that I have teeth like a dog or something on the sides and then my gums were black.. And this was just one part of the dream.
August 6. T was talking to our mutual friend E and a foreigner, whom he met on the way, when I was trying to meet him privately to give him a hug as an apology. They were talking about how bad the situation in Hong Kong was, and that they were preparing to escape Hong Kong. I kept silent, and just listened to their never ending talking as I avoided emotional investment. I still didn’t like the idea of leaving Hong Kong, but they were convinced to leave.
They continued their conversation when T, E and I went for dinner. I couldn’t understand how they talked about these things in a normal, easy tone, when they said that they have been anxious about them. I could only eat quietly as I tried to fade out from the conversation, but T noticed that I was uncomfortable, and said that we would leave earlier, leaving behind E.
I went with T, and I hugged him with my arms on his. I wanted to embrace him, to tell him I was sorry about what I did and said on August 5. However, he wanted to say sorry for what just happened. We hugged, and let go, we held hands for the first time, and we walked in silence. His eyes were red as he held in his vulnerability and urge to cry, he looked lovely in a pitiable way. I hugged him again.