I’ve been at this for a long time, yet I love it so much it feels like I just started yesterday.
I’ve seen a couple of these floating around so I’m jumping on the band wagon
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Hey, All the time music is good, & music is good all the time!!
Doin’ all I can to keep fighting, keep reaching, keep believing, KEEP GROWING!!
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YOU ALL TRULY ARE THE BEST!!
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The anger builds up & builds up
To the point, its burning on the inside
Trying for the life of me to not let it show on the outside
Don’t know where this severe irritability is coming from
Say one word,
And I’m jumping the gun
Feel like I’m losing control
I may say something,
But nothing like the rage I feel in my soul
Why the anger?
Why the depression?
Why the anxiety?
Feel like there’s something more…
I mean, why diff diagnosis’
Should just stamp the word “fucked up” on my forehead
They say I’m stable,
But I feel any day I can crack
Any day I can snap
The day when the pain and self-torture will somehow overlap my lack of assertiveness
My “let it slide” passive shit
And I’m afraid of that day
How atomic will the explosion be?
Who will be disappointed in me?
Who will leave in the aftermath?
What kind of destruction will I leave in my path?
Ill do anything to not succumb to the pain,
Anything to forget about this overcast over my head filled with this ominous rain
Some people last out, on the outside;
Screamin, Yellin, throwin projectiles to embellish,
Some lash out on the inside;
Imploding instead of exploding,
Hateful words that add to the self-loathing
See, I’m an imploding type,
Always scared of not holding onto it too tight,
Always scared of letting it all show,
But then, it got to a point where as, it’s buried so down below –
So buried, I can’t shovel it out
I can’t reach ALL the pain
Can’t scream it out,
Paralyzed for holding it in for too long
Now, that decision,
I can’t say if that’s right or wrong
But I was always wondering’
If and when, that ticking’ time bomb would stop ticking
If I’d be un-masked
And where the lightning would strike?
And who would be inflicted?
Would my family be victims?
Any casualties of war?
Cause, that’s what this is… A never-ending war
Overwhelming battles waging,
And, my mind is where they’re stored
It’s depressing’ how depression has become my normal routine
No tears dripping’ from my eyes anymore
It’s abnormal if I don’t feel this void inside of me
But I’d be lying if I said, I love what I see when I catch a reflection of me
I see myself, and hear all the phrases that were repeated to me
I remember the continuous times, they said I look like a man;
And that may be true
I mean, I do have more testosterone than any “normal” female do
And thank you PCOS, for making these words more believable
For making my appearance so repulsive that, sometimes I wish I was invisible
But I must admit at school,
I was pretty good at hiding, though
I remember when that teacher marked mt absent,
When I was actually front row
I remember every single day,
The anger boiling inside of me,
Felt like flames engulfing’ me,
Ready to burn me alive,
Or a bear clawing, at me,
Tryna tear me apart from the inside
Only one that worked out for me out of 6 drawings tonight. Nothing turned out where it’s worth showing, seriously! 🤔😒✍🏻🥴😤
WAYS OF CREATIVITY;
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