I need to get out.
I feel like I’m suffocating in a city I have lived in my entire life. 23 years of the same thing, day in and day out.
I need to get out.
I recently found a city that has completely taken my breath away. Although I have never visited this city before, everything I have seen or read about this city astonishes me. In a way, it eerily resembles my own city. The one I need to escape from. Except it’s different. It enhances everything that I love about my own city, and seemingly drops the not so savory aspects. The weather would be a huge change, but in a good way. I think I can easily leave behind 45 inches of snow. Something else has recently come into fruition, and I’m terrified, but so excited. This something could potentially help me escape in the future. Even more exciting. Ever since I was a child, I knew science was the field I wanted to be in. CSI inparticular. When I realized you had to first become a patrol officer before you could become a homicide detective I realized mmm maybe not. But something that is very similar is a Medical Examiner, and eventually corner if you’re lucky. I may not have just graduated from high school, and yes my fellow high school peers have already graduated college, but I made a decision within the last week to go back to Med school to become exactly what I’ve always wanted. It’s terrifying. It’s nerve wracking. It’s almost to big to accomplish. I keep speaking about it just in hopes of it actually happening. I have attended college before, and I do have an incredible GPA, but I have a long road ahead of me. I haven’t graduated with a degree yet, because life unfortunately sucks sometimes. I do have to continue to work full time, because I’ve been on my own for years now. Work always comes first, because the bills gotta get paid. Amiright. But I know how the current story ends, and I must say I really dislike it. So, before it’s over, I must quickly rewrite. Write like I’ve never wrote before just so I can give myself the ending I want. I know I’ll regret it if I don’t. So ladies and gentlemen of the world, in which I’m convinced I know none of you, and truly no one cares… please wish me luck. Hahaha I’ll need it. BUT ALSO keep your dreams in mind. Remember you’re the author of your own story, and if you think about the ending of the current story, do you like it? If not, think about what would make this an enjoyable ending, and rewrite like you’ve never wrote before! Cry along the way if you have to, but also never remember to smile.
• 03-21-2019 •