We could get it right… you know, our differences aside. The malice, the constant pain to eachother. The ignorance… the fucking bullshit… the curse words..
I wish we could get it right just once. I scream for those days… cause you were my best friend. There was a time where I was terrified of what the future would bring me…. but you always held my hand along the way and somehow, everything just felt …. normal.
What happened there..? I already blame myself, but I just keep waiting for you to blame me too.. and when you blame me, you -really- blame me. And …. I guess…. I’m not ready for it yet.. each time I think I am…. I’m not, and then we start all over… I’ve wasted so many lives already. My reset button is stuck… my data is corrupted. I can’t even find the damn disk anymore… I wasn’t responsible , and I lost it..
I’ll admit… it’s not cool for you to go for my friends when you -know- I love you… but can’t -love you-
Will it always be my fault? Will I die knowing it was always my fault?
I know your watching me…. I still sense that lingering feeling…. the eyes on my back…. I feel your shadow creeping around my substance…
Tell me I’ll die knowing it was all my fault…
Your happy right..?
… I know your watching me…